She listen-She learn-She speak

music really do change one's emotion. music hides memories.  i hate music.literally.sometimes. because it reminds me about something.  the memories the forgotten people the forgotten event and the forgotten feeling  have u ever heard this..  'music is my life ' ? for me..yes it is my life. because music is my life ,  and my life had so much ups and down ,  as days goes by all that ups and down becoming memories ,  and yet sad memories is more vivid than the others,  and then the music remind me of all the sad memories ,  in the end..i hate music as it reminds me of all that. but..the memories.. the good one will always comes after the sad one.  can't complaint.because that is life. 

how can i say anything when the only thing matter to you is only about you how can i say anything when there is no even slightly chance for me to say something how can i? how can i keep holding on to you when everything does not seems right how can i keep on trying when you already stop trying how can i? how can i stop when i've come to this far how can i survive if there is never-ending story please stop. im tired.i cant handle it anymore.  its hard for you.. but its hard to me even more

that guy.. yeah..that one.. him.  170-58-30 ......................................................................................................... nothing much to say. its just that..i dont feel like to talk nowadays. about him or about anyone i care.  just let it keep safe in somewhere inside that oxygen pump. okay?? thats it. ive lost that charm of being talkative and full of brilliant idea of what to say since.. since .....................................that moment. the moment when the world around me start to stop. 

jatuh.. ku bangkit jatuh tersungkur..ku gagahkan hati ku gagahkn diri.. aku bangkit kembali aku terjatuh tersungkur lalu tersembam.. ah! pedulikan itu. aku tetap bangkit dan berdiri atas kemampuan ku biar pedih biar sakit. aku tahu.. aku harus bangkit.  aku ada tanggungjawab aku pegang amanah aku harus bangkit.