was it unfair or what? (shemey, 2012)

it feels so much oppressed when people start to give higher expectation instead of giving support and guidance on how we should act in order to handle our life.

i'll be the best among the best

i'll be on the line among the excellent

if u want me to be your golden daughter

yes.. i'll do it

but if u want me to be number one..i'll just can be number two

but if u want me to take the mt. Everest.. i'll just can handle mt. Kinabalu

please don't expect high on me

i just cant handle it

i'm a human being and i'm not perfect

there is a thing that i may not be able to take care of

there is a thing that i don't even know how to handle it

there is a thing that i cant even take it and do it

i'm a human being and i'm not a robot

 i have a feeling 

i have a thing that i wanted, i have a dream that i wish for

i want to have it too, i want to make it real

but still yours is my priority.

whatever u wish for i'll try my best to make it real

but could you please give me chance to make mine real too?

just for this once, once and nothing more.

i know what i should do 

i know what i need to do

i know what i have to do

don't tell me what i should and shouldn't do as it clearly written in my fate 

that i have this huge responsibility that i have carried since i was born 

and yet i had to carry it throughout my life

see?

please don't push me.

i can't handle it. 

p/s : i love you mum and dad