registration course in mood..need extra course. shemey talk 22

sitting on the chair. facing the laptop screen
staring at that page. precisely..at that person face. yes. YOU.
scrolling down . clicking each of photos of you.
sigh.
deep down in my heart i wish that i had never met you.
i feel sorry to you ..and to myself for us to meet in this lifetime.
poor you but poor me more.

i start to think that all this long my biggest problem for me to hardly deal with is MY PAST
it seems like i could never let go of my past
those words. those eyes.. i could not recall but sure i could not forget either.
if i were given a power to travel through time i will definitely going back to the time when i first met you.
and..you know what i might do. common sense man.
i will put a distance towards you.
as far as anyone couldn't reach.
sigh.
i hate you.
but i hate myself more.

still. i hope for a miracle to happen for both us to be able to get along to each other
i have imagine so many good things to happen to us though.
i hope we could talk to each other on unnecessary things
helping each other
greet like a real friend
or exchange at least a smile.
i wish.
sigh

all those past really taught me a lesson. yes. lesson learnt.
but first i gonna need to enroll myself for course that study on how to LET GO THE PAST .
beeeecausee~ clearly..i am still unable to let go my past


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