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what life is all about? the more u try to understand what life is all about the more u get confused. dan semakin banyak merasai pengalaman semakin kita faham hidup itu bagaimana. pengalaman buat kita sedar betapa kerdilnya diri di mata pencipta. kerana jika suatu saat kita di uji dengan bermacam2 dugaan  tanpa perisai2 iman takwa tekal tabah kebijaksanaan kewarasan mungkin kita akan jatuh kerana itu terfikir.. "experience should made a man humble." ada pepatah : orang yg bijak adalah org yg merasakan dirinya masih belum cukup bijak orang yang bodoh adalah orang yg merasakan dirinya sudah cukup bijak sinonimnya : orang yang mengaku dia faham apa erti kehidupan itu sepenuhnya sebenarnya adalah orang yang masih belum kenal erti sebenar kehidupan itu.  dont be to arrogant just because u have faced one hardship in your life. life is a long journey. it never stop. life goes on as long as u are still breathing one thing for sure perbanyakkan ...

here i am.  sitting in front of my table.  facing my the one and only favorite stuff to fill my boredom. surfing internet facebooking tweeting blogging.   and didnt even think about biochemistry.  which suppose to be my concern for about three days. it do bother me sometimes. but. seems like anything doesnt work to me now. even though im gonna have my biochem paper this wednesday.  luckily..it is my last payyperr for this semester. yeah!  kota kinabalu sabah land below the wind ~  here i come~

assalamualaikum dan selamat petang wahai insan-insan di muka bumi ini.  fyi..saya org sabah. so today im gonna write using my language yeah.but a little mixed with english. faham tak faham..terpulang.  to start with hari ini hari ahad. esok hari isnin dan seterusnya hari selasa. dan hari selasa pula my second paper gonna start which is ESE-english for self-expression. and u know what subject is that? its about writing a script, learn about expression making short drama, directing, acting and yeah..i love it. so damn much.yup. because i love acting :)  ok bkn tu yg sa mau story2 ni sebenarnya. dis is about something that lingers in my mind lately. sa pn tya tau knapa dlm bnyk2 bnda ini juga yg sa terfikir. bukan satu seja..bnnyk benda. so sa list la satu2 apa yg sa terfikir.  >> roomate sa bwa pgi beli food.tpi sa belum solat asar. trus sa terfikir. kalaulah saya decide utk solat asar slepas beli food then otw balik tiba2 ALLAH tarik nyawa sa..the...

masahulkhair~ today is saturday  and i was suppose to have fun.sleep all day long watch movie and laughing teasing with my roommates. but..unfortunately it is not. today was my first paper for final exam.  and yeah..it had just finish about 2hours ago.  and now another 6 papers to go. cant wait to see this end as soon as possible and not enough with that..my mood once again being twisted to the hilt by this someone. from a bit depressed into so damn depressed. so nice of him! damn. with his childish action..blaming me for this and that..heart feeling..provoking and so on really pissed me off. what is wrong with him? for sudden being so..urghh!!  here is the thing. once i have ditched u from my heart..it means u are just nothing matter to me anymore. whatever action u might do or anything isn't gonna be my problem. as now u were just somebody that i used to know. (gotye~ :P) you..your thing..your life aren't something that i s...

morning peeps! just finish doing my laundry~ well.i lied. ahaha~ just finish taking my shower it is almost afternoon. so obvious i woke up late. isnt? hua3~ nvm. okay. enough on that. ohya! here. when i was doing my thing in my lappy..i found sumthing. its kinda diary that ive wrote 2 month ago. when i read it back..its interesting. like seriously..suppose i should write it recently.not 2 months ago. it is exactly what i feel now. hayyo~ well..whatever. no matter what..its not gonna change anything. here it is :: 17 april 2012 Its april now. And there was a lot of things had happened. And u know what..sabtu yg lalu..i went out with SYAHMI rasidi..and i was so damn happy. Cant tell how happy i was. And he said he was happy too. And yet so many things i had confessed to him. I think tht makes him like me more. Hua3. (perasan). haha. And another thing is..d day before tht day..afmi called me.he said.. DYA RSA DYA MSIH SYG SAYA. And u know what my heart feel? It...

assalamualaikum..and morning everyone~ today is my last day fasting. pheww~ it feels owesome. :P oh well..tomorrow gonna be my first day for final exam. yeah..its kinda heart attack for me. i haven't finish revising all d subjects. whoa! it do freak me out. with so many things happen recently..kind of distraction for me. losing my focus for some petty matter.what a waste. even ryan did say d same thing : "sheamy..throw that away from ur mind. dont think it much. its a waste u know." see..im making it even worse and complicated. obviously.. it is stupid. u think u are smart enough..so no need to do some revision? perhh~ FIAll. u think u are genius? dream off girl. always remember : there is no clever person or stupid person. there is only hardworking person or lazy person. unless u are some kind of physicic or genius. didnt study but still excel and strive in exam. either u hardworking and passed or lazy and failed whatever it is..all the best to all m...

take me out of this darkness. show me the way. stumbling. its confusing. which way should i go? thinking..thinking..and never stop thinking. its hurt. my head hurt. too much thinking make things become more complicated. this is what i really not favour at all. what should i do? and yet this heart doing its own chit-chating. feeling this and that. really. its crowded with so many feelings. loneliness anger mixed with excitement and boredom. and its rhyme the same rythm. hurt. let him go, let him go, let him go stay strong, stay strong, stay strong stop and end it. never hope for something that u know its not gonna happen. life is like a cycle. there is always up and down. what makes u stronger is how u manage to survive. because no matter how many times u stumble down.. there is always a way for u to get up.. u only need a strong will.. if u believe u can do it..yes. u can. because now i believe i can get out from this darkness.

problem when u fall for the wrong guy at the wrong time. oh ALLAH please throw this feeling away. it isnt bring any good but worse . here is the problem. the biggest problem i encounter. which ive never have the clue on how to avoid or run away from. easy to fall for a guy and what worse the guy is not the right one. it is stupid . u see why this always happen to me? because i have this unique heart (consider it is unique) and different ways of thinking . which sometimes make me able to see deeper and deeper into the based of their heart. what i mean is.. behind their bad attitude i saw the good attitude that they hide. behind their selfishness i saw their hurt. behind the ego i saw their insecurity. behind their playfullness i saw their sincerity . behind their stubborness i saw they afraid of being broken hearted. behind their joyness i saw their loneliness . behind their happiness i saw the hole full of sorrow . i saw it. everything. i understand it ver...

assalamualaikum dan selamat pagi~  today is the first day of june. hopefully today and onward my life getting better which is less hurt lest complicated less chaotic. recently, my life is really sucks. so much problem so much hurt so miserable.  and its kinda stupid okay!  seems like it started with him (NA) suddenly appears with news of his girlfriend >> and this international guy whose frequently giving me headache  >> my friends reaction towards this russian guy >> the society whose so close minded >> my health problem >> my family >> and lastly..my study yeah. its really too much for me.  i always think why ALLAH test me with this look-simple-but-not-problems whenever the exams is around the corner?  like seriously..last sem during my final sem..my heart system attacked. and yes it do affecting my study weeks. but thanks ALLAH i still get good pointer..which is 3.00 above.  and now..the same thi...