a piece of memory (shemey, 2012)

morning peeps!

just finish doing my laundry~ well.i lied. ahaha~ just finish taking my shower
it is almost afternoon. so obvious i woke up late. isnt? hua3~ nvm.


okay. enough on that.
ohya! here. when i was doing my thing in my lappy..i found sumthing.
its kinda diary that ive wrote 2 month ago. when i read it back..its interesting.
like seriously..suppose i should write it recently.not 2 months ago. it is exactly what i feel now. hayyo~ well..whatever.
no matter what..its not gonna change anything.
here it is ::


17 april 2012

Its april now. And there was a lot of things had happened. And u know what..sabtu yg lalu..i went out with SYAHMI rasidi..and i was so damn happy. Cant tell how happy i was. And he said he was happy too. And yet so many things i had confessed to him. I think tht makes him like me more. Hua3. (perasan). haha. And another thing is..d day before tht day..afmi called me.he said.. DYA RSA DYA MSIH SYG SAYA. And u know what my heart feel? Its nothing. waaa..i just cant believe tht. Because.. i know..whatever thing he said now.. doesnt matter anymore. It doesnt change even a thing. Everything still d same. I wont take him back.  For god sake!!  I wont and i wudnt. Unless..we r meant to b. But Like i said..there is a ton of fish out there for me to catch and eat. Ahahah~ one thing for sure..ALLAH dah tntukn jodoh kita.so what do i expect from all dis thing? I love i hurt and i healed. Still he didnt turn into my husband. Haaa..see? dats y i dont take dis seriously. Even how good i am in planning and trying everything..but still ALLAH will decide d ending. Isnt?  Seryesly. Im not faking things here. Im telling the truth. Yes. I am real healed. So damn healed. Now then i realize..whatever hardship i faced i still can survived because this is SHEMEY. i once forgot i was SHEMEY. d bold positve and courageous girl in d world. So yes true. Right now right dis moment to tell d truth..yes I AM healed. But whatever it is..i dont lie. Yes. I do heart them both. Till i meet new person..or perhaps my future imam..till then no one could change my kasih sayang for both of them. Seryesly. Thanks ALLAH cuz always be there for me even when at certain time i forgot ur presence. Im sorry. But.. no matter what ALLAH is always the best listener guidance and yet provider for me to depends on. 


p/s :: 
its 17 april..
no matter what.. life must go on.right? 
moved on live your life. be wild be fun be good.
try everything..learn to let go and yeah..try as much as possible to survive. 
be smart be different be alive be someone better. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

to mister keris melayu (shemey, 2012)

hey mister,  when im with him..im thinking of you. today, someone hurt me. and i was thinking of looking for u. crying, talking and telling everything to u. i know u can always find a way to calm me down. and.. u know what.. there is someone here who looks like u. the way he think always reminds me of you. i was thinking to look for him and talk to him as how i talk to you. i was thinking to let him replace your role just for a moment u were not here. but.. situation didnt allow that to happen. so..here i am. writing my heart out here in my blog. hoping for u to read this.  i wish u were here laa~ p/s : skrng ni mcm kau bz man aku bz women sudah bha~ kau dgn study kau..aku dgn kerja aku. disana la kita berngam itu. nway..selamat berposa. :)
Read more

diorng kawan ku (shemey, 2012)

aku rindu moment sekolah menengah aku.  i am proudly saying  "I LOVE MY STELLA MARIS SCHOOL" eventhough i dont really care about that school. its just that the school had given me so much memories to keep. i missed 'em so much! amigos.. i missed u all! kerana di sekolah tu lah aku kenal kawan2 aku. walaupun aku kat sekolah tu cuma 3 tahun lebih..tapi aku lebih suka dgn sekolah tu compare to sekolah baru aku kat SMSL.  dan cerita pasal sekolah lama aku .. there is a few people that i won't never forget. dan bila aku ingat diorang aku akan teringat benda yg berkaitan dgn diorng dan benda tu akan buat aku sentiasa tersenyum bagai. ahaha~ tgk..even aku cerita skrng pn aku dah gelak sorang2. x boleh blah.. debbie cynthia : sinti  asal aku igt dia..aku teringat stadium likas dan acara balapan. dia ni atlit tau. dia lari sgtlah laju. cuma yg buat aku x bleh lupa adalah cara dia lari dimana kaki dia mendahului kepalanya. korang x dpt bayang?  x dapat ...
Read more

counting the day (shemey, 2012)

here i am.  sitting in front of my table.  facing my the one and only favorite stuff to fill my boredom. surfing internet facebooking tweeting blogging.   and didnt even think about biochemistry.  which suppose to be my concern for about three days. it do bother me sometimes. but. seems like anything doesnt work to me now. even though im gonna have my biochem paper this wednesday.  luckily..it is my last payyperr for this semester. yeah!  kota kinabalu sabah land below the wind ~  here i come~
Read more