i need help (shemey, 2012)

problem when u fall for the wrong guy at the wrong time.
oh ALLAH please throw this feeling away.
it isnt bring any good but worse.

here is the problem. the biggest problem i encounter.
which ive never have the clue on how to avoid or run away from.
easy to fall for a guy and what worse the guy is not the right one.

it is stupid.
u see why this always happen to me?
because i have this unique heart (consider it is unique) and different ways of thinking.
which sometimes make me able to see deeper and deeper into the based of their heart.

what i mean is..
behind their bad attitude i saw the good attitude that they hide.
behind their selfishness i saw their hurt.
behind the ego i saw their insecurity.
behind their playfullness i saw their sincerity.
behind their stubborness i saw they afraid of being broken hearted.
behind their joyness i saw their loneliness.
behind their happiness i saw the hole full of sorrow.
i saw it. everything. i understand it very well.
it takes only a short time for me to see all of that.

im too understanding.
this what makes thing more worse.
because my heart were involve in this situation.
and i keep giving people chance to prove they are better than this and show me what i saw in them.


oh ALLAH.
what should i do?



p/s : oh goshh!! someone please help me~ i really need someone to talk to right now.

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